Lonely

Its the moment that you want to be more with people when you are actually devoid of company. There is an emptiness inside one which starts searching for someone to fill in the emptiness and make you feel complete.They come in different forms while sometimes the emptiness be just simply you have been alone for some time without much company. Sometimes just a dear friend can fill in that space and make you feel complete back from pieces to whole. While sometimes it specifically yearns for something more specific beyond the things in your hand it can be ur mom's love, ur brother to fight, or ur sister to gossip or ur mate who is expected to complete yourself and take up all the other roles that you had the leverage of enjoying until he/she entered into your life!!

How much ever you want to divert your thoughts and run away from thinking of the person who is making you feel lonely, the more it takes on you by entirely eating up all your memory making your processor to go to 100 % usage where you have to stuck for sometime depending on each one of us and the nature of the relationship of the person we are missing.

Sometimes its just a matter of few minutes after which you can successfully drive them away from your mind and go about your normal chores in life. Sometimes it becomes more of a challenge ,you have this weird sensation in your heart like someone is squeezing it and your running out any supply of air in the lungs and it starts feeling heavy in your heart.Like the heart is not trying to do its normal amount of pumping of blood to keep you in a comfortable state..

I bet there would practically be no person who has not gone through this state in their life. The ratio of feeling lonely is directly proportional with age.,The more you grow, the more likely you are to be a victim of loneliness..For young kids don't even know what is loneliness and with age we start developing our preferences over people and start looking for particular type of company to fulfill the emptiness in each one of us.

Right now I am feeling more lonely because of my friend who I badly want to be with now to clear off the contraction in my heart and restore me to become normal by all her gesture,talks and magic...But guess what she is totally not reachable presently and that makes me more sick of it, for the daemon in ur head starts fueling all negative thoughts by giving in extra pump of oil.

Like am I important to her; would she prioritize me over something or is it just one sided emotion. Am I nuts to be dependent on someone to this extent or is ti worth all thise, should I change the way I feel about this person and thousands of questions keep running in your mind.

But everything is waiting for that one person's presence at the moment of need and if you have the privilege of being with that person over any of the means of communication for few minutes ;it kills the negativity ,doubts raised by the daemon and everything feels normal again and you can breathe fine

and feel warm and happy.....

But there are very few times in your life when you are actually lucky to have the emptiness filled and most of the time it gets worse for you have to deal with it and you try harder to come over it and eventually drift to sleep or diversion mediums to bury the thoughts and next morning when you wake up its all gone.

Sleep is the most powerful medicine for loneliness for it erases all the last nights confusion in the morning and you start off a fresh day with complete storage capacity .